|the leap of faith :D|
There was 2017.
Another year in my yet finished journey
Is a year when I learned the hard way to let go
Is when I had to let go
Is when I learned that losing the loved ones is capable to make you dead inside
Is when I learned that being empty inside is a real thing
Is when I realize that tears cannot even contain my sadness anymore
Is when I know I had to put it in the box as always
Is when I realize being a strong ones is sucks
Rest in peace, Mother…
Is when I know that nobody will understands you except yourself
Is when I know that no matter how sad and broken you are, you can choose to keep It in yourself.
Is when I know that my mask is still attached stronger than ever
Is when I learned that moved on is something you have to do to yourself, not for anybody
You only can move on, if you want to move on
Is when I lose another best friend of mine
Is when I find the heartbreak of losing a friendship
Is when I know I am right to say, "she don't deserve you"
Is when I understand no matter how close I am with someone, he/she will eventually leave or go, I am lone wolf inside
Nothing I can do to make everyone understand how I feel
Parting ways with your best friend is always the most hurting, by the way.
Is when I travel to east side of the Indonesia
Is when I found the true beauty of Indonesia
Is when I cut my left palm by a coral at the sea
Is when I promise to be back at the sea again
Is when I accept that we were through
Is when I know I am waaaaayyyy more quiet than before
Am I changing? Do sadness and sorrow makes me dull?
We are still not talking to each other
I got new things to do at work
So do you
Got a new smartphone!
Trying Xiaomi brand for the first time and overall the experience is great!
Wish I can skip this month
Is when every happy moments hurts like much
How can those moments turned into such a cruciating moments to be remembered?
Is when I am trying hard to find every possible reason to stay sane
To stay in my job, to stay being in my life
Is when I realize I want it back in my life
Is when I first say sorry to you, and you say sorry too
We were amended. We are a thing once again.
I happy. So do you.
Is when I know we are going to be best friends for long
Is when I know that pride and ego is lonely
Is when I learned that putting your ego and pride aside is not a shameful things to do
Is when l learned that every relationship is worth to be fighting for
Happy time! We met again after 5 month of not talking to each other.
Is when my cousin get married!
Is when I know that family matters
Is when I try to opening myself up to outside world, try to let people coming
Is time to changing this mood
Is when I apologize with one of my old best friend
That friend who got away
At least I am being honest
The last time I went to the cinema this year.
I told myself I will not coming back until their upped their rules
Unless it's night time, when no children or pre-teen can be seen
Unless everyone who are watching are aware of ratings
Unless no kids in adults movie! No pre-teen in adults movie!
Too Good at Goodbyes by Sam Smith is released!
I never feel so acknowledged by a song in particular but this one
It is the soundtrack of my life from now on.
Is when I drifted away in my own mind
Kind of don't know where to go
Feeling disoriented? Want to quit my job? Trying to find a new pace?
This month is weird, man
Never good with any woman before
And this one is nothing different.
Is when know that I am helpless with girls
You broke a woman's heart years ago and promise to never let it happen again
But your silence just tear another one
Well, guess what, thank you for making me realizing something : stay away from girls, Rizaldi! Until you are ready to protect hearts.
Is when I understand my introversion better
Glad to know myself better
Is when I know that opening up to someone is hurt
Is when I know people can sometimes be forceful
Is when I have to realize that kindness is can be translated to any kinds of things by a strangers
Killing with kindness is real
When I know, for sure, I ain't got the time for those romantic feeling
I hope you can be happy without me
When I learned : Do not open up yourself to stranger! You will overwhelmed with the things you cannot handle.
Pokemon Ultra Sun and Ultra Moon is released, y'all!! #pokemonfanboi
Me being a base leader/manager for the first time
Got so much experience to feel
Got so much lesson to learn
Got so much problem to solve
Got so much emotion to buried under
I walk the walk
I talk the talk
And realize, 2017 isn't too shabby at all
there was 2017, and here is for 2018!